Hello everyone.
I am a 33 yo female, turning 34 in 2 weeks, and I just got out of a pseudo-relationship that was verbally and emotionally abusive. Only to realize that this is the tip of the iceberg, as I have also been abused when I was a child.
And I have always wondered why I feel like I'm running away from someone, or something... I really don't know. I am grateful to have been given talent & perseverance--being granted the best education in my country in Asia since I was 11 yo, finished pre-med in our state university, and passed the medical boards in my country when I was 25. But it was only during the last years of medical school that I realized that despite my accomplishments, I felt broken. I had a lot of close friends, but could not sustain a long-lasting and fulfilling relationship. I just felt broken, and realized that I was a victim of sexual molestation.
Since then I felt like running away. My friend told me that I should not worry about it too much since I turned out to be an accomplished individual. My mother told me that everything turned out fine, I was the pride of the family. I read tons of self help books, but nothing got into the core of my issues.
Yes, I am a wounded healer trying to heal my own wounds.
Due to the economic instability in our country, I took up Nursing to be able to go the the United States. I was only granted 3 yrs to work in the US. Fortunately, I was granted an immigrant status to Canada. My career seems stable, but in retrospect, when it comes to matters of the heart, I had a hard time establishing healthy emotional relationships.
As I embark on my journey towards healing from abuse, whether I start from the top or bottom of my "iceberg", I hope and pray that I would find answers to my questions and at the same time, bring healing to those who can relate to my situation.