Emotionally abusive relationship with my ex

I feel I need to start writing about my relationship with my ex.
I had an abusive and co-dependent relationship with him.
I should not have such a meaningless relationship with a guy.
I did not get a chance to talk about it.
I hope to write about it here.
Writing should help me to get recovered, I believe.

Write away gato1116, get it outta your system.

Hi hun. Writing can be very therapeutic, and seeing things in black and white can help you to make sense of your emotions. It can also be helpful to know that people are reading your words and hearing you.

Greatexpectations

Yes, I will write away and get out my negative feelings associated with the relationship with my ex
of my system.
I will cleanse my system by writing about it.

masquerade

Yes, I found writing can be very therapeutic, too. Sorting out things into black and white categories help me to make sense of my emotions. Why I was angry, Why I was sad at all those moments...
I love writing on forum. It's a big difference to have audience and not to have 'em. Hope my voices are heard in this thread.

-- Fri Feb 24, 2012 3:05 am --

I need to write about pains he gave me.
I don't want to see pains I received from him.
I don't want to see wounds and scars he left on my mind.
But I need to see them to heal them.

I'm trying to write about my ex, but I actually remember about how I was with him.

When I moved into his apartment in 2007, I started decorating his living room, because it was too simple. I started decorating the light on the ceiling. But I didn't finish...
One day he said he wanted me to finish the decoration of the light on the ceiling.

I think it is my weak point. I start something, but I never finish it.
It's good that he pointed out that.
Also, I start something and I start something else. And I lose concentration and I cannot finish both and it's unmanageable...
I need to acquire skills to finish and skills to manage things...

How long were you with your ex?

Greatexpectations wrote:How long were you with your ex?

I was with him since January 2007 until October 2009
So...Two years and nine months, I was with him...

I first met with him on 22nd November, 2006.
I last met him on June or July in 2010.

-- Sat Feb 25, 2012 4:44 pm --

He emotionally hurt me...
He emotionally hurt me...

He was living in my home country until the summer of 2008.
After he left my home country, he came back to Canada.

He did not contact me very often from Canada.
I became very lonely.
One time he said he's already gotten a cell phone in Canada when we were talking over skype or gchat.
I was shocked because if I was in his position, I would tell his girlfriend as soon as I get a cell phone.
I told him that he didn't tell me his cell phone number.
He said his cell phone number is on facebook.
It was emotionally hurting because he treated me as his audience.
I am not his audience. I had a personal connection with him. I was his partner.
He cannot treat his partner like that...

I felt he treated me very lightly.

Hun, you didn't deserve to be invalidated in this way, and treated as an "audience" and not a partner.

masquerade wrote:Hun, you didn't deserve to be invalidated in this way, and treated as an "audience" and not a partner.

Hi Masquerade,
Thank you for your sweet words.
Yes, he invalidated me. I feel deeply hurt when somebody close to me invalidate me.

By the way, "Hun" is an abbreviation of "Honey", or just a greeting?

It's an abbreviation of honey, used often in the part of the UK where I come from. If you are not keen on the term I won't use it. How are you feeling now? Are you finding it therapeutic to write?