I showed abusive behavior

In the past, I have committed verbal and mental abuse on others. I really didn't mean any harm by it, I was just "goofing" around.

I think the moment I went to college, I forgot everything my parents told me about how to behave and get along with others. I didn't insult people, physically harm them, or violate their personal property, but I did do childish things that bothered and upset others.

One roommate, who could have been a very close friend, was especially a victim to my childish games. I would often yell his name repeatedly upon entering the room, ring the telephone from the main living area, watch him until he yelled at me to stop, or even asked "are you there" and "are you really there?" when coming in the room.

I am just recently starting to realize how this was great harassment. In the past, I just accepted these behaviors as "part of the fun" of college and "why was what I did any worse than anything others did?" Other roommates tried to mix alcohol in with kool-aid to get me drunk, or used my things without asking. But how could I have exhibited such extremely harassing behaviors?

There were also other things I did "goofy" I just cannot believe. I once pretended that I was going to "hit" my roommate with his crutch (what if I had accidentally dropped it on him?).

It has been a couple of years since I exhibited these behaviors. Being sorry is not enough, nor is messaging these people and asserting what I did. But I can go on, and guarantee that I will not do these things again.

This is no excuse, but a couple of years ago I was diagnosed with a nonverbal learning disability, a condition which helps explain why I am constantly on a different wavelength than others. Part of this condition is that you have trouble reading social cues or following social norms. It's more difficult to put myself in others' shoes, and I don't seem to directly comprehend what effect my actions will have on others.

I think I'm a good person (or that I at least have some good qualities). has anyone else exhibited behaviors like these? Is it common for individuals to often do this who may have conditions such as NLD or Asperger's?

I wish I was not as antagonizing as I was. I hope the harm was not too severe.

Hi, DM05! What you did was not that horrible. It is wrong to harass others and it's good that you realise that, but you probably are a good person. You could try to get in contact with the people that you think you have hurt and apologise. It could make them feel better. I'm sure they don't hate you or anything.
Maybe it could have to do with your condition, but it could also have to do with the fact that college is a stressful time when you try to fit in and it might have made you a bit more aggressive.