Living with a con man

It's been 5 years since I survived hell. I never have and don't think I will ever be able to speak to anyone around me about my experiences but I need to ventilate because it's just getting worse.

I guess you'd think that life gets better after surviving but sometimes it almost gets worse. My memories (which I can't talk about), the three years of my life I have lost and cannot cope to think about, the nightmares. I am abusing every substance under the sun to try to escape thinking and re experiencing what I went through and I'm slowly destroying my life and my health because he is not here to destroy it anymore, but the memories of him destroys it.

I'm sorry to sound like a victim but it's slowly killing me and I don't know how to move on. Has anyone else lived with a con man/psychopath or similar? Please share with me.

Many thanks

Not sure about Con man here, but people here have dealt with a lot of narcissists and psychopaths.

Do you have any friends or family that you can confide/ vent with. These sort of people usually burn all your friends and isolate you, I know, but was wondering ??