"yes...mommy"

Growing up in a crazy house...seriously, was grwoing up abused. I was not ever beat. But I had my share of sexaula buse....and major emotional abuse. Its so hard to talka bout and hard to admit but the emotional hurts more then the sexual abuse.
I am 23 years old...as of today! And my mom still has ways of hurting me. Like she will say my sister (who is favored) said something about me which she really didnt...or mom will say somethimng to her like I called her names...whcih I didnt just to make us mad at eachother. Or she will call me at 2 am yelling at me telling me how I should kill myself.

When I was younger nothing was ever right. I ate too much or not enough...I did chores to help...but she thought I did it just to get money....she would through things around and have me pick them up while she yelled at me.....she called me names all the time...fat..stupid...ugly....bubblebutt...worthless...I had to get all As in scholl...but when I would then she would say I only did it to pass her by in life...so I started to fail on purpose which only caused names like dumb..idiot....I had to clean everything just right or I had to re do it...then she would yell at me for using too much cleaners...so I ened up having to get little neighborhood jobs to earn money...in summertime whenb there was no school she make me do book reports and she by these cross word puzzles for me to do...with a time limit...everything had time limits.....I mean the list goes on and on...this I think is the hardest for me to describe as well as talk about because words hurt...actions hurt...not being loved hurts....being sexauly abused by my father and my mom seeing it not caring hurts...having a mom go to bars unti 2 am while bring home more abusers hurt...all as she stood by and watched it happed.....I was reading anothers story who sounds like a lot mine....if I could say somthing to my mother it would not be "yes mommy" anymore it woulod be WHY,
I say that now by I always give into her abuse
(I say mommy because saying MOTHER or MOm to her face is like calling her a bitch..according to her

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im sorry

I still feel like I have to please my "mommy" even though I am a grown ass women....she still has mind control over me and I realize it but cant stop it

I'm sorry I have an aunt just like that. I think the best thing you can do is try to get away from your mother for awhile. It's easier said than done, and it certainly won't erase all the scars, but it's better than being continually stressed out and talked down to, you don't deserve that. Plus, it will be good for her aswell, you know? Or, if that doesn't work you can try to confront her about this, but from what you've said she seems like a difficult woman to talk to.

I hope everything works out for you...