Boyfriend and emotional abuse?

I don't really know who to turn to about this.
My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost a year now. In the beginning he was so understanding and loving and I thought I had finally found someone who would finally understand me and be there for me.
After a few months he became distant and things changed.
Suddenly I was trying to communicate with him and he would just look at me blankly and not even try to be present in the discussion. He was more and more distant and would spend all his time on his computer even if I was in the room. We began to be physically present to each other but we were in no way spending time together. I figured we had just fallen out of the honey moon stage and that's just what this was.
Before I came to college, where he goes as well (that's how we met) we were two hours long distance but I'd see him a lot. Over the summer he was so clingy that it drove me to almost break up with him. He'd freak if I didn't text him fast enough or if I didn't come home to FaceTime him.
When we came to college that all stopped, but he actually just went from that extreme to being extremely cold.
Now it's every day that I'm crying and feeling unloved. I just found out recently that I'm diagnosed with bipolar disorder and he hasn't supported me or even tried to educate himself on it. He just pretends it isn't real basically and has no desire to try and understand it.
He's done things like:
One time he was mad at me and just drove the car around dangerously fast as I was sobbing leading me to end up cutting myself because I had a mental breakdown.

I always beg him to spend some time with me and he always claims that he is even though he'll be on his computer or on his phone. He refuses to give me his full attention.

I begged him to come over during break one day because I was very suicidal and scared. He chose to go to his friends house and get drunk instead and when I tried to express how much that hurt me, he screamed at me and told me I was guilt tripping him. I tried to leave him and he said if I left to not come back. I couldn't get myself to actually leave.

If I say the sky is blue, he'll tell me it's red and explain why like I'm an idiot.

He once was mad at me so he told me he was going to the dining hall and I went to meet him and he told me he had left, so I turned around to go back and got back to the dorm and then he told me he was actually still at the dining hall. I walked to the dining hall and he told me he had gone back to the dorm. He knew I was currently on my period and in tons of pain at the time too.

If I try to communicate my feelings he basically tells me I'm wrong and that my thoughts and feelings are not valid. I'll tell him he hurt me and he'll say "no I didn't" and things like that.

He'll make me cry and I'll be sobbing and he'll ignore me and just watch television. Later on after I've calmed down, he'll pretend nothing happened and try to kiss me.
He does not apologize and when I've told he never says sorry he says that trying to kiss me is his apology.

Today, I fell while walking to the dining hall. I'm currently on this medication for my bipolar that one of the side effects is dizziness and delayed reaction time. He always walks so fast in front of me that I was trying to keep up with him and tripped. He didn't help me up, he didn't try and help me walk, he just let me limp the rest of the way to the dining hall and cry in pain. When we got there he got irritated because I wasn't hungry anymore and he went and got food and ate alone while I waited in a different room.

He's constantly annoyed with me. Especially with my mental illness.

The thing is, I can't decide if this is my fault. I keep thinking its me, it's my bipolar disorder that's making me think he's being emotionally abusive, or that the stress of having a mentally ill girlfriend is what is causing him to be this way. I keep thinking maybe I'm just being dramatic and maybe it's normal for people to be like him because I know my emotions are overreacting so maybe his are just normal and I can't understand it.
All I know is I'm always crying and always feeling so alone.

I feel like I can't leave him. I wouldn't even know how. We live together on campus and I have no where else to go. If we did break up, I'd have to drop out and go home because that will probably send me to rock bottom after how bad my mental disorder has been lately. I have no one to turn to and no where to go and plus he's the one person who has stayed and put up with me through everything. He's the only one that really knows me and has seen every end of my disorder and has stayed with me. And I do love him. I care about him a lot.

I just don't know what to think or what to do. I don't have any options and I can't keep feeling like this.