The Last Straw

My mom had another "episode" today where she totally pushed me away with her bad behavior. So here's what happened: my cousin's wife was having a baby shower that my mom and I were invited to. I headed over to my parents house early to drop off some garbage before going with her to the shower. As I was walking past the kitchen window I could hear her inside yelling at my dad..."she better put the garbage in the right place!" Well I know where the garbage can is but also there is a trash collection soon where the village takes away other waste (old couches, clothes, construction waste etc) and I had a couple of bags for that too and I knew where to put it. My dad comes out of the house and sees me and he was in a bad mood (gee I wonder why?!) And I wasn't so happy either from hearing my mom put me down when she was yelling at dad. I told him I knew what I was doing but he took the waste from my hands anyways. I walked to their pool to rinse off my hands and tried to shake it off. I wanted to have a good day. So I went inside the back door and my mom was in the kitchen cutting up strawberries for a dessert she wanted to bring to the baby shower. She yelled at me about shutting the sliding door...even though I did shut the sliding door properly...she plays this mind game a lot- she'll yell at me on how to do something the right way when I've already done it the right way. It's very demeaning. Then my dad walked into the kitchen from the side door entrance and started lecturing me about my attitude. You know that picture of the cosmos TV show host with the caption "we got a badass over here", well I did that pose and said "woah there calm down" trying to make myself smile and lighten the mood or at least keep my head cool. Then my mom started screeching and pointing the knife and at me. I could tell she was already a worked up before I got there (she has anxiety issues and she hates my aunt). So I dropped the card off on the table in the dining room and calmly said "I think I'll just go home" and walked out. I could hear my parents inside arguing cussing me out etc. And as I passed by the kitchen window I yelled "you're the ones who chased me off!" And my mom replied "no you chased us off!" LOL Wut? Yeah sure. So I drove home, called my cousin to let her know I couldn't make it to the baby shower because I had a bad argument with my mom (the family knows mom and I don't get along) and she was OK with it. I feel bad I missed out but I really didn't want to be in the same building as my mom. And if I did go she would pull her little mind tricks to try and humiliate me. Yeah not having that. Anyways I've just had enough of having to always try to make an effort to get along with her when she constantly steamrolls over me. Respect goes both ways lady! I feel a lot better just thinking "I'm not going to swallow my pride on this one again!" If she apologizes I will accept it but I'm not going to apologize this time when I've done nothing wrong. Like I said, she was already upset before I got there. Of course I do forgive her...but I don't trust or want to be anywhere near her anymore. I'm done playing peacemaker with someone who is constantly causing problems.