by In_Blue » Fri Aug 15, 2014 9:03 am
My dad keeps focusing on mistakes I make when he talks to me and makes me feel bad. All my dad thinks about all day is fixing what's wrong with everybody and everything. He has no hobbies other than staying home and watching t.v. and all he thinks about is health problems and chores and cleaning, and that's all he thinks is important in life. None of us at our house have an actual life and he doesn't seem to think it matters. And he's mad all the time, and then denies it and says he's never mad. Every time he talks to me for the last 2 years all he does is talk about what I need to fix and makes me feel like complete crap. And a lot of the time I already feel like crap, and I don't talk to him about any of my problems anymore because he just tries to fix "what's wrong with me" and makes me feel worse. And that's why I stopped talking to him about stuff in the first place. And he's always trying to tell me what's wrong about me and force his opinions on me. And I disagree with him, and every time he talks to me it turns into an argument because I disagree, and when I tell him, he just keeps going on and won't let it go and keeps trying to talk to me. I just don't want to talk to him it gets so bad, it makes me feel suicidal sometimes but I can't and won't do that. And I really want to punch him but I don't do anything. Every time he talks I just want to leave and go in my room, but then he gets offended. And when I disagree and say I don't wanna talk, he acts all suicidal and says stuff about how everyone's making him feel bad because they don't want to talk to him, but no one wants to talk to him because he makes everyone feel bad when he talks, and he thinks he's the only one that's right and doesn't care what anyone thinks because they're wrong. It's not fair, he makes me feel really bad and I just want to get away from him and not talk, and he acts like I'm making him suicidal even though I'm just trying to make myself feel better by getting away. I try to avoid him, he sleeps in the front room so he's always out there, and I never sit in the front room with him or hang out with him out there anymore for the last 2 years since he's been acting like this. So I'm almost always in my own room or in my mom's room. And I don't have that great of a relationship with my mom either, she acted really controlling to me growing up. But as it is right now, she doesn't force her opinions on me anymore like my dad does now. As long as I don't bring up a subject we disagree on, she usually doesn't either, and we can just relax and watch t.v.. I just try to avoid my dad and relax in my room or my mom's room to feel less stressed. But then my dad bugs me about how I don't spend time with him, but I don't because he make me feel really bad, and he won't get it, he thinks there's nothing wrong with the way he acts. I just feel like moving away and hardly keeping in contact, but I don't even have the money to get my own place. And he's like trying to force me to keep a relationship with him, like he has this idea in his head that he's going to be my dad and help me and stuff, and he's using that to justify everything, and all he's really doing is being controlling and forcing himself on me, and trying to force me to like him. And he's really childish in his mind and get's sulky and needs anger management