Not Sure What to Do.....

When I was 4 years old, my parents got divorced. When I was 9, my mother re-married. He was a nice guy until we moved into "his" house. Then everything went down hill. I lived in that house for 10 years. At first it wasn't so bad. I generally just ignored it because I was young. Eventually though, it just got worse. Within 2 years of living there, it got to the point where I wouldn't go home. My mom's new husband was always finding some reason or another to scream at me for something that was completely not even worth getting mad over. He would scream at me even when I did my chores around the house like he told me to. When I was 10 and again when I was 13 he and my mother had a child. Now of course, to this day, he has never treated either of them the way he treated me. I moved out a little over a year ago and I live with my boyfriend who is very supportive and tries his best to give me everything I need. My problem these days is that I have nightmares all the time about my mother's husband, and they've gotten so bad that I haven't been sleeping for more than a couple hours at night. I'm not sure what to do, because I just can't make any of this go away, and I find that I am depressed a lot and never want to do anything. I'm sure people out there have problems worse than mine.....but any comments would be helpful.

First of all nobodies problems are worse than everybody else's. I have a lot of flashbacks and fear that I don't know where it's coming from either. I was diagnosed with PTSD, and sometimes if I remind myself of where I am and how old I am it helps. Another way to deal with this is to come up with a place in your mind that you feel the safest; like the moutains etc. take yourself their when you start getting memories. Night time is really hard for me too; I'm on medication that helps me sleep and forget about stuff. A counselor would'nt hurt either. I hope that this helps.
enola