I'm in my psychology honours year and I've just started applying to masters programs all over the country. I'm a little stressed out because I'm repeating honours, I have an A aggregate but I only managed to achieve a D aggregate for my previous honours degree and a C aggregate for my bachelors degree.
My mother is a clinical psychologist and she's really abusive towards our family and me in particular. She's the main breadwinner and she never let's any of us forget that. She divorced my father when I was little and remarried later. She has a terrible relationship with her current husband and always accuses him of cheating on her, particularly with her secretaries whom she hires and fires regularly.
She often picks on me and has been especially abusive towards me since my first semester results came out. I needed my results to apply to masters and she refused to pay my university fees so I would not be able to get my academic transcripts (it was not because she didn't have any money, financially we're upper middle class).
Fortunately, the finance lady at varsity was nice enough to take the financial hold off my account for a few minutes so that I could get a transcript. She was irritated that I was able to get my transcript and she keeps picking fights with me. She keeps telling me that I'm stupid and I won't make a good psychologist because I'm a 'little spoilt brat bitch'. It really hurts me I don't know why she doesn't want me to succeed. I really worked hard this year to do well, she always fights with me during exams ands yells at me when I'm trying to study. This year I stayed at my sisters house while I was writing so she couldn't shout at me. When she saw my marks for this semester she said it doesn't matter that I have an A aggregate the selection committee won't select me because of my '$#%^ academic history'. I feel stressed out because psychology is the only profession I can see myself in. I really want to study human behaviour.
She also keeps saying that she's going to make my boyfriend, whom I have a healthy close relationship with break up with me, she said that because she's a psychologist she's credible and she can make him believe anything she wants. She always calls me a 'slut and a whore' and it hurts because its not true. I'm still a virgin and I've kept myself well mostly because when I was little after she divorced my father she used to bring home any man who would have her and drop us off at my grannys house. My granny was really lovely and she always said it was important to keep yourself pure and I've done that. I really miss my granny she died during my final exams in third year and ever since then my mother has been unbearable towards me.
How can I stop her words from hurting me?