FML

[Nathanael~]

I try to be normal, but the truth is I don't want to be normal. I like being f**ked-up. But no one likes a crazy, loves a crazy, understands a crazy so I have to do my best to try to be normal but I'm NOT crazy! Because someone else has experienced what I have as well...but now the bad part is that I saw her as my lighthouse in a world of darkness, and I love her with all my heart, and now I find out that she's just as f**ked-up as me so I guess I really am crazy after all! But there's more - messages from other people we've never ever met pointed directly at us by name and description (sometimes me, sometimes her) all over, and our story played out across a million different fictional accounts so am I really crazy or is it all just a big fat f**king scheme to make me believe I'm crazy?!? F**k the Puppet-Master, f**k my parents who f**ked me up, f**k this world. If I could leave this s**tty rock (short of putting a bullet through my brain) I would gladly do so. I didn't ask for this and as far as I know I NEVER deserved it...and neither did she. Used, abused, lied to at every turn, not sure of reality or what makes something real, hated by everyone who would hate me more if they knew what went on in my head...or is it in my head? What if all the world is in my head? I dunno, crazy thought right? Broken, beaten, tattered, torn, in hell, mind shattered, heart ripped open, FML