I hate my husband

[turtlelove]

He's such a ######6 asshole. I wish I never met him. I know he gave me my daughter but she would have been better off not even being born. I seriously wish I had known better and had not gotten involved with him.

He is just ######6 mean to me ALOT. He says it is his depression that causes it. Yet he won't go on antidepressents or go to therapy. He just smokes weed all day.

He NEVER hugs me or kisses me or holds my hand first. He NEVER compliments me on anything. I am not exaggerating! He has told me a few times over the years that I am a good mommy. That is really it. I tell him he is handsome or cute or looks nice. He barely says thanks. If I ask him if he likes how I look, he just responds with a yeah. He tells me I have ruined his life and he is tired of taking care of me.

I asked him if he wants to separate and he gets pissed at me. There really is no solution to this. And it sucks...

I am seeing now why it was always easier to blame myself. It was easier to believe this is my fault and I can change it. But I can't change anymore than I am doing. There is nothing I can do to make this better except not even care what he thinks or says and just stay away from him. What a life.