why do i feel this way?

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So i meet this girl in my class a week ago and i thought she was cute lets just caller her jen. I didnt realize i new one of her friends so me jen and my best friend who is dating jens friend all gohang out we went out for ice cream then we chilled at their house for like 3 hours. We all had a great time and i must say i really do like here she is really cute. she acted as if she acctually liked me. I flirted with her and i really do think i made some sort of connection and truthfully it felt so good i had more fun than i have had in a while.Whenever i see her smile it makes me smile. After we hung out I felt amazing i was full over energy and i wanted to see her again. until the next day once we picked her up i realize she liked another guy. After that my heart just droped and for the rest of the day at school i was wondering what i did wrong. And i know she isnt interested in me because i see how much she likes him which is mostly what i want. Now im not that great with girls im in 10th grade and havent hade a girlfriend since elementry school who asked me out. And i still havent even kissed a girl. And the was i saw her act about him is what i want in my life. I want a girl that has a list of things that she loves about me. Even i cant find things that are great about me. I want a girl that when where texting cant w8 for my reply just like she did with the guys she liked. And i made me evern more depressed because she is a goddess her skin is so perfect and her nose is so small and cute and she wears glasses which i love and her eyes are so beautiful. she has a nice body but when i think about her i dont think about sex i think about talking to her and just being around her. And then i remind myself that ive only known her for less than a week which doesnt make any sense to me. why am i so sad? I mean if i knew her better or longer i would tell her how i feel but im just scared shell think im a creep if i just explode with emotion right in front of her. And it doesnt help having know one to vent to. I mean my best friend wouldnt understand, for som reason girls flock to him. And not trying to be mean but hes not even that attractive. Idk it might just be that hes confident. He would just make fun of me. Its just i havent been close friends to any girls i guess ive gotten afriad of them. and once i find a girl that makes me laugh and have a good time, and i even make her laugh, it just gets taken away from me. That day i was sad I never even looked at another girl i kept seeing her in every girl i saw. I was just comparing them to her. I feel like such a creep for falling this fast mabye its just because i havent rly had any girl that loved me or even liked me enough to come up to me and say hi in the halls. No matter how much i tried to start a friendship. Now when me and my friends go to say a party part of me doesnt want to go because im scared that the girls there will see i have no idea what im doing. But i also want to go because i want to meet new people. so it just ends up me going and feeeling nervous and not having a good time. But with her i didnt have to try she mad me calm and i culd just be me. But i dont even think she thinks of me as a good friend let alone a boyfriend. why do i feel this way? pm me if you have nice comments i really feel depressed.