Venting

[Kaleb28]

I just dicovered the venting forum so it'll be more of the same stuff I wrote on my blog


Why do I got to be like this men are just so attractive especially there butts, it's so weird a year ago men where disgusting troglodytes to my eyes, a year ago I wouldn't of even imagined finding men attractive but now I have the same feelings I USED to have for.women, I even find womens vagina's disgusting now, I've made a nine page long thread on the sexuality forum (or whatever it's called and I'll probably continue it for God knows how long, I really feel bad for snaga have to essentially answer the same things over and over again but hey on the plus side he probably doesn't remember me because of all the other people he's had to deal with. Anyway back to my sexuality crisis. My entire sexual orientation has been inverted on itself against me will it sucks when I here a guy moan it turns me on I've really started Masterbaiting to men to, like i feel like I have ocd but at the same time I feel like I don't , I can't relate to straight people anymore i feel envious, ENVIOUS about straight people envious about people who have actual OCD. the DSM and all other ocd related websites say it has to do with thoughts that a person in real life doesnt want to do or desire well men are pretty damn attractive I like Masterbaiting to men and I find women disgusting man that doesn't sound like ocd to me I remember what ocd use to feel like and this, well this is something different, I don't fear anything all my thoughts are real and my attraction is real I just hate it I hate that men are so hot I hate the I enjoy Masterbaiting to them I hate that I'm envious I just want my old life back and as the months go buy it seems like that dream of ever having what I used to desire is just long and gone and that I'm stuck here living in a depressive unproductive and miserable state. It's funny I read a post on the sexuality forum and the guy mention how it was like something flipped in his head and he started staring at guys and fantasizing about them well for me it was slow and I don't find women as attractive and when I do fantasize I both hate it and it turns me on sort of it all just sucks