by causalset » Thu Oct 25, 2018 5:52 pm
I participated in Social Anxiety forum where I was complaining about my Asperger and asking why people react the way they do. At first people were patient but, after several months, they came to think that it is useless to try to explain me things because I just go in circles. And, to make it worse, they blamed my Asperger for it. So its like they are discriminating against me based on Asperger.
But what they don't seem to understand, is that I am not stupid. The reason I am going in circles is because there are two levels of asking questions: one is "what should I do to improve my situation" and the other is "why did people act the way they did in the past". Since I am 38 year old, single, and bitter, I was asking the second type of question, instead of the first. And the reason I can't accept the way people act is because I feel like a victim. So you see its not just asperger that incapacitates me, but it is the treatment I received. And the way people treated me in social anxiety forum is a pefect example of this treatment. No, its not the message boards that hurt me the most, its the real life. But the point is that: if it wasn't for people LIKE THEM, then who knows maybe I would be more normal.
In any case, from time to time there were new members coming and they were willing to try and help me, but the old ones would warn them not to. So that pissed me off and I was like "okay let me warn the new members myself" so I made a post "###$ all of you". Each time I was making that post I would be banned for a month. Then I would come back and the situation would repeat, and I would get banned for a month again. Well, the last time I made that post (few days ago) they banned me permanently. And this pisses me off on several levels:
1. Even though "officially" I was banned for the F-word, the REAL reason I was banned was that people don't think I belong there anyway. The F-word was just an excuse. I mean think about it: I probably made several hundrid posts there. Only five of them were my cussing people off. Everything else didn't include any cussing at all, it was just me going in circles and people feeling like explaining to me is useless. So whats the REAL reason for my ban? Probably the going in cicles part. AND they blame going in circles on Asperger. So they discriminate against my Asperger.
2. If you want to be "official" and say that I was banned for cussing, then why not ban those other people for belittling me for my Asperger? They said I was banned for "personal attacks" (not this time, the previous times I mean). Well, how is saying "###$ all of you" a PERSONAL attack? Whom is it directed at exactly? On the other hand, the attacks that I experienced at those other members hands were, in fact, PERSONAL. No, they didn't involve cuss words, but they were belittling regardless. So why weren't they banned?
3. They called "permanent ban" with an abbreviation "permaban" and they have a list of "permabanned" members, and they just added me on that list: *mod edit* Just to clarify, even though in that list they use the full "permanent ban", whey I am trying to log in they are using abbreviation and telling me I am "permabanned". So I guess they are having fun with it. The real issue is NOT that "permabanned" users are disturbing the board, but rather that they are losers and nice to make fun of. Which fits right in with the reason for them banning me in particular: they think I am a loser so its useless to help me anyway. So it feels like they NEED to "permaban" people from time to time, to keep their "game" up, so they were like "hmmm, whom can we permaban this time? Nope not those other people, they might benefit from this board. Oh yeah, we can permaban causalset, he is not teachable anyway, so he is the best one to permaban with minimal damage". I mean thats what it feels like.
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