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[bobok]

Tried to single out a venting issue but pulled out an octopus. Fond of salads but not of preparation. Letting it untangle in its own accordance. Sea food was never really my thing.


If I had to pick an issue still, it'd be - confrontation with my content-lacking-bag (and brain?) some 7, 8 hours of sleep later.
I still tell my ego it is I who reigns over my impulsivities, still introduce them as my three-eyed slow--blooming planned step-children. Planned stupidity is one dignified step above the plain stupidity. That aware of its stupidity is not yet doomed.

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Comedy builds itself on exaggeration of human flaws inviting the audience into a superior position in relation to a protagonist. Protagonist is dehumanized, their destiny tied to their dominant flaw. Neither Greeks nor Romans ever intented for their (comedy-)audiences to empathize. Empathy kills the comic. Wonder why so many think comedy's all about 'light and easy'.

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There seems to be a trend of claiming superficiality and illiteracy. 10 out of 10 cases - not only not the case, but most likely the opposite case.
Was hanging out with Henry Miller for the last couple of days and wanting to c/p the whole god damn thing. Unsure if a forum can hold his 318p heavy monologue.
I let my reading choices be spontaneous but they nonetheless seem to lead down the same path I already had in mind. They also tie into the previous ones, despite their authors being separated by centuries and oceans and worldviews. Abandon real life for more than I have the capacity for and my reading lists all dissolve into a singular-ever-going-dialogue with universe.


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Wasn't aware much of power of hypervigilance over my own life until I got (and stayed) underwater. Courteousy of gravely silence sharpening my senses.
Facing the depth is not a cliche. Cliches are more handy than I'm willing to admit to myself.


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Can't deal with but need forcibly imprinted inside of my skull - The substance abuse goes hand in hand with X. Always has. Impossible to escape one and keep the other.
Need vitamins. Sleep. A real diary. Happy people.
Black-hole phase needs to be recognized and dealt with before you get sucked in. Getting sucked in is a choice and will cost you 3 months of your life each time.