vent-ish/people in my life constantly...

[hurtingflower]

I'm 16, and I'm honestly really tired of adults and older people telling me that the reason I'm struggling is only because I'm a teenager and all teenagers go through this phase of life. Yep, all teenagers have gone through 6 hospitalizations, all teenagers self harm, all teenagers hide in the bathroom at school for hours crying and hyperventilating because of a Panic disorder, all teenagers spend every waking moment outside of school hiding in the house, all teenagers have such intrusive thoughts that they can't do anything but fantasize abou their own death, all teenagers plan their own suicide every day. ALL TEENAGERS... all teenagers. Stop telling me that people have it worse. I know that much, and it just makes me feel like a jerk for feeling this way. It just keeps getting harder to control everything. Anger, anxiety, my OCD... I'm sorry for this, but I really don't think EVERY TEEN can't imagine themselves living past the age of 20. It sucks.
sorry again for kind of venting.
-flower