Overwhelming Myself

[sickspine]

I have this bad habit of getting over-involved with various things when I'm feeling great, only to feel myself become completely overwhelmed as soon as I hit low points.....or I get over-involved, and that is the cause of me hitting low points.

Right now, I am a full time student, I have a part time job, I volunteer at a local bookstore, I tutor once a week, and I am going to be interviewing tomorrow to be on a conduct board at my college. In my head, it doesn't seem like a lot, especially in comparison to a lot of other people I know....but at the same time, I still feel like I am being completely overwhelmed by all these things, like the stress of being involved in all these things is absolutely butchering me. I know I don't take my mental illnesses into account, and I really should, because they do impact how much I am able to do...but at the same time, I just don't want to do that, because then I'd feel like I was making excuses for myself.

I just don't know what to do at this point. It's only a few weeks into the school year, and I already feel so overwhelmed and done with everything, and I don't know what to do about it. I honestly feel like such a failure.