vent about wanting to disappear

[badluck]

trigger warning for suicide.







I really wish I could die sometimes. I can't cope with having to struggle all the time, having to inevitably struggle so much and be in so much pain even when there's here and there tiny good parts. I wish I had no family or friends who would suffer so that I could die free and without this horrible guilt. I really don't want to hurt them. what is the point if I'm always going to be alone? if I'm always going to be terrified constantly? if I have to forever watch as others have actual lives. its like I wasn't meant for this life. I wish that people could understand how painful it is so that they could accept me ending my life.