I am disintigrating

[The_Ghoul]

I am the scum of the earth , the death of world finding form in absolute nonexistence. EVen child molesters are loved and have girlfriends , even killers , thieves , rapists, and drug addicts have friends and are loved , but I am apart , neither existing nor not existing but set seperate apart from the world. I see myself set alight , burning brightly as the world dies ; and I know this is my destiny. There is no place for me here , never was nor will be. I am the abject freak, diseased, dead, rotting from the inside. Bit by bit they leech my soul , demons tearing me to shred to pieces as I fight a losing battle I cannot win. God help me. I am not allowed to believe in god, I am schizophrenic. I do matter. My death will be witnessed by the world. This hunger will consume the planet and the screams of the dead and dying will make me complete. Where was I when they decided all this? Maybe I was there, Memory is so fickle. At one moment i am here, then i am in another dimension , all over across the stars,