I dont think it will ever get better

[jaus tail]

i am tired of looking after the inner child n just fed up of everything. the memories dont go. nothing seems to work. i'm just tired n exhausted.

i cant fight any more n m just exhausted. i got a shelf of books in the house n i just feel like setting them on fire.

they represent the fact that
i have no friends
am lonely n got nothing to do with my time
i force myself to read cause i think it will help my mind. but its self torture, that's what reading is. each day is grey n brings more dread.