Trying to make my peace with this.

[atbf]

I think i have a problem, but i don't know if it has a name, so it's hard for me to live with it. One time someone told me it could be a mixture of a light schizofrenia disorder and a socipathic disorder, but i don't buy it or i don't think it's that complicated...

I see and judge myself from "outside" all the time. It's like I control my life by a third person point of view. Aside from that, i have all these "me" inside and can control wich one has to make its part depending on the situation... I realised that when i was little and after a fight with my mother i only cried because it felt like the thing that the situation needed, not because i felt sad or angry. Like, right now, the person writing this is the "me" that is aware of all those things that happen inside my head and can talk calmly about it, but i have a "me" that is freaked out about it...