Random ramblings

[AprilR]

Lately i've been feeling so anxious about future that i can't seem to find enjoyment in anything, and if i do i immediately feel guilty for daring to be happy because how can i enjoy myself while i'm 25 and still have no hope of ever finding a job? I know my parents will love me regardless of anything but i can understand they're getting worried about the future too and it hurts even more knowing they're trying to hide it. Being a burden on people you love is one of the most painful things in the world, i hope no one ever experiences this. I wish for myself and my parents whatever's the best for us.