arrgh bat crap

[Snaga]

you ever WISH for a breakdown? just wish you'd totally lose it and go nuts. my god sometimes i almost envy folks that have nervous breakdowns. i feel as if i could have a breakdown but I'm too sensible for that so i cant i just let the stress of life keep on eating my life away. be so nice to chuck Reason out the door. I know I know not really. no. much better to stay rational and see how long i can resist the constant wash fight or flight hormones thru my system. see how long i can go before this damn place finally kills me. god i hate being high strung. and stupid. and add. and ocd. god I'm such an idiot. what a screw up. sucks.