So I guess it's not ok to be a woman?

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Because I was born as a male. I love how the christian church likes to cherry pick arguments.

"God fashioned and formed you in the womb". That's their favorite.

But if God formed us in the womb, then what about all the people who are born with conjoined twins living inside them, or so brain dead they are vegetables? Or any other disability?

"Oh that's not God. That's nature because nature was corrupted in the garden by the fall of man".

But didn't you just say that God forms us in the womb? I thought God didn't make mistakes? So now it's nature?

Which is it?

"But God chooses your gender. It's a result of nurture and your parent's failings that you want to be a woman".

Really? Which is it? Your argument is a fallacy. Who is to say that my body was also not the result of a mistake of nature? And besides, I didn't know that changing my body changed my heart or my ability to love God.

Especially after I made a vow of celibacy after I choose to transition two years ago, to satisfy any "requirement" that I'm not in a "sinful" relationship because I couldn't stand the guilt.

Not to mention I grew up in a home of hypocrits that profess God and christianity and yet wont admit that they too don't practice what they preach. "Do as I say and not as I do" is what I grew up with.

I feel such guilt and shame for wanting to be a woman. I'm sorry that I feel predominantly, no, overwhelmingly feminine and that I hate my body and my masculinity so much and can't stand the depression for not being able to express myself the way I want to.

Because it's wrong and sin and bad and I can't stand the guilt and shame of it.

So, God forms us in the womb. Then it's nature when God f*cks up, but He still chooses our gender.

How about this? Maybe God programmed nature with all its laws, nature got corrupted, and nature is just carrying on it's (imperfect) programming?

Because if God fashioned us in the womb, then we would ALL be perfect like Him. Then nobody would be sinners and it sort of negates the need for Christ's sacrifice doesn't it?

I'm tired of the hypocrisy and the damn guilt placed upon me because I choose to live how I feel!

And anybody wonders why even though I believe in God, why I have such trouble with living for Him, when I don't even feel acceptable to God because I'm in "sin" for wanting to be my true nature. I guess that means I'm in rebellion?

Got to love how they cherry pick their arguments to suit their agenda and their own bigotry.

It's bad enough living a life where I've felt nothing but rejected by everyone. Rejected by my mother who was supposed to be a staple of support, stability and nurturance. Instead I got abuse, neglect, disapproval, rejection. Rejected by my hypocritical, critical family. Rejected by peers.

All of my life I've been told how I'm wrong for being ME. Anything I do is wrong. Any hint at my own independent expression is wrong.

No f*cking wonder I was so damn suicidal and self-loathing last year. No wonder I became so full of hatred and self-hate and bitterness and anger and started self-harming and had a suicide attempt. I couldn't stand the thought of living any more. I hated myself so much.

Any wonder I have such trouble with self-acceptance?

Nobody f*cking gets it.

I HATE MY BODY and I HATE MY SH*T LIFE! NOTHING I ever did was right.

Close this POS. I've said what I had to say.