My Sin? Wrath!

[Thexena]

I am so angry today! I am angry at my ###$ up father who broke my ability to trust men because he taught me I was not worth anything and that men ALWAYS cheat and that they will always leave you!
If it wasn't for him my fiance would not have cheated on me because he would have known that I trust him - but I couldn't because I was taught that all men will eventually leave me. I am angry at all the men who think that porn is not cheating. I am angry because no one wants me. I am angry because God is not answering my prayers. I hate all the men who cheat, who lie, who can't love as deeply as us women do! I am pissed off that men want to have fun with sluts but when they marry they want to marry virgins. I hate all guys who ignore me, just because I have black hair and green eyes and I am 15kg overweight.I hate guys who lie and say they do not want skinny, blonds with big boobs but they do! I hate how society made it OK for men to be like this - to let them break our hopes and dreams and just turn their backs and say "I don't love you". WTF?! Why am I not worthy of love? Why do guys treat me like I'm worthless?! Why, in this whole wide world can't I find a single guy who wants to love me just as I am?! Why are guys so shallow? Why are guys so mean? Why, God, can't You send me just one man who will love me just as I am? Why? Why?! WHY?!