People who think paedophilia is just a different perspective

[somekindamillie]

Seriously, i'm getting sick and tired of people trying to make it seem like its okay to abuse children. it ###$ me off to no end when people try to rationalise is, or tell me that i'm being immature because i can't see it from a different perspective. I'm really mad right now.

i have a teensy little (giant) problem with looking up things online relating to pro-pedophile movements. i guess its just because I am terrified that maybe it will become legal one day. and yes i know to some people that sounds insane. and i keep having nightmares about it.
I always have this recurring nightmare about my own abuser where i am sitting in a room with my family and he is there and no one seems to think its a big deal. and i start screaming at him and shouting at my family and yelling 'why aren't you doing anything?!' but no one pays any attention to me. and i get this horrible panicky feeling inside because even though he's just sitting there, i can't understand why no one gets how bad it is that i have to be in the same room as him.
but now when i'm awake, all i can think about it that my dream might be real someday. but not just for me, for every child. because it will be okay to abuse kids.

sigh. i just needed to vent about this, its really been playing on my mind lately. all of this Jimmy saville stuff has really stirred my issues up.