My mother had narcissistic traits. My father I don't know. My siblings grew very insecure, egocentric with some big issues. I was the one with no drama, smiling and discrete, developed myself outside home. Hiding issues or tears. I feared mother, like a squale, would kill me at the view of blood. I ...

So I'm trying to learn how to escape suffering

I have never had a problem with allowing myself to be honest about this topic (especially to my step-brother Josh). I am the product of an affair and my father and his family lived 3 blocks away from my grandmother's home where I grew up. Fastforward to 2018 when I saw him for the first time since w...

Hello I don't think you have had as hardcore case as mine on this forum before. I'm Darius, 40, from LA. Former football player (bench wormer for 4 years, never made seven figures) and personal trainer for past 16 years. Bull in the "lifestyle" for past 16 years as well. Addicted to sex wi...

Is age 18 too young to diagnose personality disorders? Although you are an adult at that age, you are a teenager still. I think the best age to diagnose personality disorders is at least 25 or 23 at the youngest. If a person get's diagnosed personality disorder as soon a person turns 18 years old, c...

Hi, I used to suffer from acute anxiety and panic attacks. I tried various anxiety medications, but none provided relief. My psychiatrist suggested trying an antipsychotic (Zyprexa), which finally gave me 100% relief from anxiety. I continued taking Zyprexa for 4 years, but it also caused emotional ...

also dreamed in the city where i used to live.. that i was always finding myself somewhere and not knowing how I got there. Is this strange?? :O

Hi I have currently found myself to be host and understanding that I have also have Dissociative Identity Disorder (multiple alters) but I also have memories of having a total phobia of speaking at school when I was last host. (around 11-13yrs old..body is now in its 50's). We have had many differen...

Hi, so I will try to explain my situation as understandably as I can and if anyone can tell me their opinion I'd really appreciate it. Ever since I was introduced to the fact that there are other sexualities and gender identities I was not only questioning myself but I was also being questioned. Som...

i dont want to be happy. it feels like betraying my past.
any step i take toward a future(new friendship) feels like step away from past n the hope that i change it.
i dont want to stop mourning my past. i dont want to bury the dead body of my past