24F, sharing story

Dear trich, it's not easy to understand you. Yet we go way back - 17 years.

I was too young to really understand you or name you at first, but I kept pulling because it felt like a relief. Not even after doctors appointments did I really think you could cause serious harm. The docs didn't get you correctly. Yet if I had somehow known all the pain you'd cause me for the next 10+ years, I'd had stopped you early.

You made my life difficult and I'm sick and tired of it. How do I convince you, Trich, that I'm not interested in prolonging this with you anymore? Ugh. First, I let you appear freely in shape of a damn mullet, old pictures that makes me cringe. Then, I hid you from everyone using hats, scarves or parting this way and that... Going to the hairdressers was interesting. So you know, I never felt truly strong, like I know I am on the inside. I had a shave to make you go away but you came back after a year and a half, rearing your ugly head. Today, I just pull at the area over my left ear and it's been days since. Well, just imagine the relief. I want my thick curls back because it's not yours, it's mine.

Thank you for sharing your story relief94. I’m a skin picker, but I have a family member with trich. Good luck in your journey & keep writing.