started pulling again

I stopped pulling about a year and a half ago when I decided to get my dream pet, a persian cat, just by him being there gave me a reason to stop pulling, whenever I felt the need to pull, I would just go and pick him up and give him a cuddle. Now, he is no longer in my life, I barely had him 2 years but I stopped pulling for so long that in the end, I never even had the urge to pull.

This year has been very difficult for me, with the loss of my companion (which i blame myself for) - its been hard to live with the guilt and even harder to live without him.

Ive started pulling again since he left, I'm back to square one. I dont see the point in anything anymore. I have no friends and my family dont give me the time of day. I am so scared and i feel so lost and alone. I cant stand to be without him, I dont know what to do.

I'm not sure what to say but you are not alone. No one is ever alone. In this day and age communication is easier than ever before and it is always possible to reach out to someone. I don't know you and i don't really have any words of wisdom. I can't even say "don't give up" because to be honest i think we all feel that it's hopeless at least some of the time. I know i do.

I'm very sorry that you lost your cat. While the pain of losing him is strong... with time... it will still be strong. But the pain will not take over your life, it will hit you less often, and you will be able to live again.

That's all i have to say. I couldn't let a post that states "i feel so lost and alone" go unanswered.

Thanks Malina.
Its so easy to think that people dont care then one day u realise that people actually do.

xxxx

I too am very sorry for your lose. I recommend another pet. I lost my very first horse to colic a year after I got him. I was devastated but I was forced to buy another to companion the horse that was now alone even though I didn't intend to ride again. It was the best thing I could have done. Don't take it out on yourself. Silly as it sounds ask yourself...would a companion that loved you want you to harm yourself?