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What if I really am alone?

Postby TrichySubject » Sun Mar 30, 2014 8:43 am

I was diagnosed with trich almost 8 years ago. A while ago I posted what it feels like for me, and I got responses saying that it doesn't feel that way for them.

For me it's like a certain area of my scalp feels really irritated, and it gives me the urge to pull. And pulling out the hairs in that area gives me a sense of relief for just a second. I keep pulling out my hair because I crave that sense of relief, and I end up pulling for hours, and it doesn't physically hurt in the least.
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Re: What if I really am alone?

Postby Vampireprincess6 » Tue Apr 01, 2014 1:58 am

Your not Alone, I get something similar to that. Like certain spots on my head and my eyelashes it feels like I NEED to pull. Like a certain sensation I can't describe...its not all the time for me, sometimes I just catch myself doing it, but never feel like your alone. Everybody experiences trich a little differently, but all that matters is how you choose to deal with it, I am new to this site, had trich since I was 6 and I'm 21 now...we're all here for the same reason find a way to control it
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Re: What if I really am alone?

Postby TrichySubject » Tue Apr 01, 2014 11:14 pm

Thank you so much for answering! I was really worried that I may have something different. You're right about the sensation, its really hard to explain it.
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Re: What if I really am alone?

Postby Trichmale1979 » Wed Apr 02, 2014 5:11 pm

TrichySubject wrote:Thank you so much for answering! I was really worried that I may have something different. You're right about the sensation, its really hard to explain it.

I had that on my scalp since I was 10 years . I don't pull from there anymore . I managed to programm it in 25 years . I do eyebrows sometimes . But yeah I have the same feeling that u have . It is still there but manageable . Human being can get used to anything :)
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Re: What if I really am alone?

Postby Vampireprincess6 » Thu Apr 03, 2014 10:43 pm

Actually I just remembered when I was a teenager I got this really bad. I was wearing my contacts too much and it started getting a calcium buildup under my lid, and it was really irritation, I was constantly rubbing my eyes, and then I started pulling out my eyelashes more because I discovered it made my eyes feel better for a minute, I still associate the two. If I get something in my eye even no, I still have the urge to pull out my eyelashes, and part of me thinks it will help
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consider this....

Postby Trickhat » Fri Apr 04, 2014 2:23 am

I have only in the last few months figured this out.....if you have a sheet on your bed, whether
you pull threads through it from the top side or the bottom side, it still feels the tension and the stress.
Its the same with the scalp (in my view). When we pull our hair, it creates a pressure in the scalp area (like it would on a sheet). I have created a hat for myself that pushes against the scalp
rather than pulling out from the top. The texture is what I crave, the pressure is what I crave...
and my hat makes the difference.

Many kids with Asperger's and Autism are calmed down with pressured vests, "squeeze machines" (like Temple Grandin made for herself when she worked on the cattle ranch (see the movie Temple Grandin for details)......and so I have extrapolated this concept to the skin/textural/"creepy crawly" feeling that has caused me to want to "pull one more, no, just one more, naw, another."
Well you know.

Its more about the scalp and pressure than the hair. That's my point. And we're in this
together.
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Re: What if I really am alone?

Postby Rach120404 » Tue May 20, 2014 11:18 pm

I have that same feeling sometimes - its like a certain spot of my scalp is never happy - needs force applied I guess you would say. I try scratching it but it bleeds, so end up pulling. Sometimes pulling the roots feels extra good to me and sometimes pulling roots creates that feeling on my head, and just continues the irritated feeling....I dono.

All I can tell you for sure is you're not alone...I think if all of us 'alone' people were shoved on an island together there would be a lot more people then we think.
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Re: What if I really am alone?

Postby Quemak » Sat May 31, 2014 9:41 am

I wear contacts as well. I would pull my eyelashes for the eye relief at times. That first eyelash pull would result in many others to follow.

I don't feel an area of irritation. I tend to have spots that just... feel a certain way. They feel right for pulling I guess. Regardless, these spots tend to be where I pull or start to pull. What really bugs me is that after I've been pulling at my scalp, the area I have pulled constantly feels a bit pained. I feel a dull pain there that seems to fluctuate. It's the weirdest thing.

When I am aware of the hairs I'm pulling, I tend to pull those hairs that are too rough or the ones I know have a thick, deep tip. After I've started pulling, if there is a large enough spot for me to feel if the area is in "straight lines," I keep pulling until I feel that the area I've pulled is straight-edged. Sometimes I do have the urge to eat my hair; I'm usually not aware when I start the eating. It used to be more common when I was younger.

I recently joined this forum. I am eager to learn of how others handle their pulling. Some reasons that might trigger a regression. Also how others react to the sensation to pull. I recently learned that there are others who like me feel the urge to pull out pubic hair. I thought my hair pulling was weird enough without the pube pulling. Yet here I am, in a virtual community of individuals who are SIMILAR TO ME. Knowing I am not alone, it is such a relief. Now if I knew someone in real life that has trich...
"Do what you can, with what you have, where you are."
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