Always addicted to something

I have always had to have something to be addicted to. Now middle aged looking back it started with food, then nicotine, alcohol, huffing, weed, fitness, alcohol, nicotine, opioids, and amphetamines. Why cant I just live without an addiction? Something is in the way and I cant pin point it. Even if I could, would it change anything? I dont know what else to say. I'm just tired of everything which is really nothing new.

Statistically 38% of us are addicted to something. Many think of substance abuse, but it can be anything.
For me, it began as alcohol. After that I developed a sweet-tooth for awhile. Not surprising, alcohol and sugar are closely chemically-related. One is produced by the fermentation of the other. They share some the same physiological effects on the mind and body.
They both can be harmful if misused. Diabetes and 'black sheep' run in our family tree.
I suspect that the 'black sheep' were alcoholics that others were ashamed to talk about. Generations of families don't like to confront family diseases and family issues.

The AMA's 'disease concept' of addiction helps to relieve some of the shame about it. It isn't our fault that we have the disease, but we are held accountable to the social damage, etc that our disease may cause.

Asking for help was the most difficult thing I ever did, but it saved my life. If you can't ask for help for yourself, start out by doing it for someone you love. Follow the advice of your doctors and others in recovery. As the mind clears and the poison leaves the body, you can choose who you want to be going forward. Save the best parts of you and discard the rest.
Addictions were a big chunk of my life. They are chronic and lifelong. Always be vigilant, don't let the addiction define who you are.

Life is always going to have rough spots, but today things are based in reality. I trust my decisions and myself. One day at a time. Best of luck to you.

Thank you for the reply

I know the feeling, I always feel like I have to be ON something, a drug and buzz and thing ... It's exhausting.

I hope you get some help