Is It Over Yet?

As my username implies, this is the question I am asking after living through stalking behavior since 2007.

It all started during a new job. I felt watched after work and followed around, to social events and even on vacation.

Then, I got laid off. For several months, a crowd of people appeared in my apartment neighborhood, keeping me up until 4 a.m. some nights. It felt unsafe after several years of living there quietly.

Then, one night, I stumbled into my local hospital, thinking I'd had a heart attack. I was given a heavy sedative and drugged into sleep. I managed to wake up at my apartment, with my vision obscured by a small square screen in the center of my vision. It looked like a fuzzy tv screen. I spent many months after that, writhing in misery with chest, stomach, and torso cramps. I had been very healthy before.

Despite rumors I wasn't expected to live, I managed to live through all of this. I moved out of town and lived in a sick bed for years. It was with this intense torso pressure, cramping, twisting, turning. My doctors told me it was nothing to worry about. Just indigestion and muscle cramps. I was given a sedative for everything.

After 8 years of it, I had a near-fatal car wreck. Within a couple of years, I felt better. Then, another car wreck. It seemed I was sitting with someone while driving, someone who nervously shifted feet while I pushed the pedals. In fact, I often felt inhabited. Was this a grossly invasive form of monitoring? I thought someone was trying to kill me. With each police report, I was told I was filing falsely, or was crazy. Many years have passed. People who may have been investigated retired comfortably and well, so I've heard.

I am trying to get my life together after losing much money to this mysterious illness. I may finally work again--at least, I hope I get a job. I am looking. What if it happens again? I may move, but will this start all over?

Is it over yet?