What is this?

I posted elswhere on the site what it is that goes on in my head: http://psychforums.com/viewtopic.php?t=13697

I think it might be getting a little better, I'm getting better at telling myself there's nothing there. That doesn't change the fact that I have no bloody idea what it is!

If you know what it's called, and even if you don't know what it's called, I would love your input. I hate not knowing what it is, it just buggs me so much!