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Re: New Here - wheres the cure :-)

Postby ScottTheSculptor » Sun Mar 20, 2011 5:48 am

exploring motivation
touch combined with hearing-smell-taste-sight

audiophiles - only an alexis would care if the sound coming out of the stereo sounded "real"
aural-surge
Ha! while sculpting - tactile aural-surge

*conducting* music - tactile aural-surge

baking bread - tactile olfactory-surge.

making music? tactile aural-surge

tactile taste-surge?

tactile visual-surge? (other than porn :-) )

Wow! mine is sculpture-audiophile-eureka The first two aren't strong enough. Okay for day to day but the "intensity" needs to be there.
The third part is necessary. But it's an emotional surge caused by emotions. Fear is one - I can't construct the others right now - too intense.

I somehow chose the best(?) one. eurekas have a time element. I have to feed more data in and that takes time. The result is more possible eurekas in the future and gives me motivation to study. The ones I'm shying away from don't have the time limitations and could spiral down, down, down.
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Re: New Here - wheres the cure :-)

Postby ScottTheSculptor » Sun Mar 20, 2011 7:46 am

(sidestepping the uncomfortable constructs . . .)

time and text

What's with that?
It takes me hours to write anything and time just disappears.

Is this emotional delay? I have the 30 second thing, do I need that much time to make an emotional decision in the text?
I think that is it. I'm not real aware of time when I'm in any lock-up. Even the eurekas require looking at a clock. The way I'm keeping track is to post them as quickly as I am able and note the time between when I sent it and "came-back". Never bothered until now but I'm "on task" and have a voracious appetite for data :-)
The "kiss" delay - I'm pretty much oblivious. I'm in the delay at the act, I go into a tactile surge, and I'm just standing there with a frozen look on my face (OK, maybe a silly grin :-) ).
Can't think of any strategies around that, just warning people (they might take it as a suggestion ;-) ).

Is this why we hate phones? We can't make the emotional evaluation fast enough? Again, I think so.

I extrapolate that my life is going to get somewhat tumultuous. . .
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Re: New Here - wheres the cure :-)

Postby ScottTheSculptor » Sun Mar 20, 2011 10:32 am

so many future alexis.
We can *see* them. We know their world is true. We can stop their wandering. We know how to help them.

Do we need to hide?
We're mutant freaks that can't believe in god.

They can lie to themselves.
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Re: New Here - wheres the cure :-)

Postby ScottTheSculptor » Sun Mar 20, 2011 11:26 am

Someone else is going to have to do the pain constructs. I just can't. tactile imagination.
Maybe we can just take it from the dataset - I wouldn't wish that construct on anyone.

how to break - shift - redirect?
Well, knowing. It is nearly impossible to explain how logical we are no matter how skewed the world construct. Logic rules everything we see, do, think. Just keep feeding in the data every possible combination and with as many self supporting cross references as possible. Most are readers. Text input is how we learn(?). It's hard to sort out but I feel that it's most important - pure intellectual data ready for meshing into the world construct. Tactile is exquisitively sensitive but it can lie? Yes, I think that's it. Aural is untrustworthy also. Why is visual so close to true? We know when it's wrong. Hmmm. how close is "the intellect" and vision?

Once the alexis figures out that their world construct is true but their senses can lie - I think you're there. I'm just not sure how weak a construct can be (I sorta filled mine in).

Once I figured it out I remembered an incident from second grade where a boy pushed me down, I hurt my right knee and I snap reacted. I was in serious trouble. The somatic reaction rose my temperature and slowed me down. They figured I wasn't so responsible if I was sick. I think I won't be accepting "lies" from my legs in the future. :-)
(what a weird way to figure out the word "lie" didn't mean what I thought it did)
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Re: New Here - wheres the cure :-)

Postby ScottTheSculptor » Sun Mar 20, 2011 12:35 pm

Cold can be a tactile surge, extreme heat also.

cocoon, quiet, neutral, darkish.
Tactile. a rubdown will "recalibrate" the tactile sensors, and distract the surge.
Music can cause aural surges but soft music (I'd reccomend ambient electronica :-) ) masks background and gives something to concentrate on. Deep breaths.
Surges are associated with whatever sensory event is happening.
If you are physically damaged it will amplify and start a somatic loop.
Try to separate your mind from your body.
Try to separate the body surges from the pain.

get that pain fixed? convince yourself it's a lie? sorry, your dataset.
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Re: New Here - wheres the cure :-)

Postby ScottTheSculptor » Sun Mar 20, 2011 12:43 pm

The worst thing you can do is to treat an alexis like you would a feeler. It'll just cause confusion and surges.
THEY'RE NOT WRONG. They just don't know what a lie is and that their body can do it but they can't.

Okay. That must be the weirdest idea to a feeler. But it's absolutely true.
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Re: New Here - wheres the cure :-)

Postby ScottTheSculptor » Sun Mar 20, 2011 5:35 pm

More on motivation;

vision = intellect?

5 senses

sight - this one is only gathering data - it does not lie
I searched the entire construct. (you can't imagine how big my construct is - and I'm self trained!). There are no incidences of doubt. The few warps are noted.

hearing - proven aural hallucinations
taste - How would I know? I have vague records . . .
touch - we know this one lies - It affects us the most.
smell - I've smelt things out of place, enough doubt in the construct to assume it lies.

So *four* with imagination.
We need to use them all to add up to the lack of imagination in sight.
Getting anyone of them going and a surge will enhance it.

Can we concentrate a surge?
focus a surge on smell and it would boost your sense of smell. The feedback loops just makes everything "louder"
I think I've done these.
That's why I blare music as I sculpt!
see coffee, warm smell taste touch - surge builds senses bloom. yup.

Multiple combinations get weird. whichever dominates gets the feedback loop.
Explains why I *have* to turn the music down when things get hectic in traffic.

So is this happening to everyone but we are the only ones who can see it since our sight can't lie? I think so.

Our brainstorms are surges applied to sight-intellect. Explains how we can think with loud music :-)
Can't brainstorm without an enhancer? Explains siiting in a weird position, brainstorming and coming out of it in pain.

We can manage this.
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Re: New Here - wheres the cure :-)

Postby ScottTheSculptor » Sun Mar 20, 2011 5:53 pm

So this may be *only* the disconnect of sight from imagination.
But what is the mechanism for runaway surges? Are they connected? If so, how does sight imagination regulate(?) the loop?
You have to "believe" your sight is correct? I think so. It's the only one with internal self-doubt.


Tactile is the strongest interface that *can* lie. It would be affected by surges far more frequently and is "larger" in just plain volume.


The definition just gets keeping tighter :-)

There should be examples of loops in the other senses. nonstop noise, locked smells, continuous tastes.
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Re: New Here - wheres the cure :-)

Postby ScottTheSculptor » Sun Mar 20, 2011 6:44 pm

So, psychologists. Do you see what you've done? You spent all this time trying to convince them that they are wrong, get them to believe another lie (just "a" lie to us). That increases the self doubt in the intellect and lets the surges run free.
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Re: New Here - wheres the cure :-)

Postby ScottTheSculptor » Sun Mar 20, 2011 6:47 pm

The construct with least sight imagination and most doubt produces the most severe surges.
I have to assume a range - some where along the range you *can* "believe"

So schizoid is that none of their senses lie? Or that they can't all surge and fight out a belief?

Constructs pop up. Battle of the surges. Pick a sense that can't win. what happens?
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