SUICIDAL CUZ OF SOCIAL PHOBIA

hi and goodbye

i have a severe case of social phobia.
i live in agony every day that i go to high school
i am going to bash my face into my mirror so i die
i do not want to live in this pain anymore
nobody understands me

Hi.
I feel that know one understands me .I don't know why I am here or why I was born in a world with so much pain.I don't wan't to talk to others about it.It hurts.I can't even feel love or pleasure for long because it makes me feel guilty.
I don't like writing,it makes me nerveous and I am always worried I might mispell a word or upset someone.
I am still looking for a reason to live on a daily basis,it isn't easy.Do you know what happens after you die,if anything?I don't kill myself because I don't want to be in pain.Dying is scary.Have you ever seen someone die?Where do they go?
Before you do something you can't go back on,try every option other than death.What if pain exists on the other side?I have cut and burned myself till I can't stand the pain anymore,and I know I have not even gotten close to what it could really feel like.What if its worse on the other side?Thats why I don't kill myself.
I don't think you know ither,unless you are god(and if you are I would like to have a very long and colorfull conversation on why!)
There might be a purpose to all of this pain after all

What if other people will feel pain after your gone?
I have trouble writing so please don't be to upset if you don't get a quick response
Be carefull with yourself.

Please get help. Shrinks are only human, but some help is better than none considering how hard things are for you right now. It WILL get better, believe me. You just have to be patient through this awful time. Hold on and reach out to someone you can trust. Don't hurt people who love you (and EVERYONE has people who love them) by killing yourself. I don't have all the answers, but this isn't it. Keep writing in.

You should read some self help books about talking to people and self confidnce they are very helpful. There are alot of people who dont understand but there are also alot of people with social phobia who do. I know its horrible but it does get better. You need to say to yourself that you are going to go to school even if you dont speak to anyone because you need your education. Self harm just makes things worse and suicide is not the answer to this and would ruin your famlies lives. keep posting people here will help you

I feel for all of you; I have had many patients who have been diagnosed and treated for social anxiety disorder. In fact, I have it myself but have learned to control it.

I initially came on these forums to do research and have read some of your stories and I would like to offer help. Feel free to e-mail me or private message me. I will do everything I can to assist you or assist your physician.