how can you open up

I know you guys are going to think i am just plain nuts. I have SAD I also am seeing a PHD however I find it hard to open up. It is not that I want to hide anything from her it is just that I am always thinking...what if I say yes and she thinks I am weird? so, due to that I will say no when I should have said yes. Does this make sense? I am always wondering what people are thinking and it drives me crazy.
How do I finally become open? Or at the very lest be able to say yes when it should be a yes.
I am so upset with myself. I want her to understand me but not judge me.
thanks for listening and sorry if it doesn't make sense
TOH

First off, I don't think you are nuts at all. I can understand how you feel.

One thing to keep in mind is that she is there just for you to open up to her. She shouldn't judge you (and by shouldn't I mean, she probably won't, and it would be wrong of her to judge you). Maybe you should tell her there have been some times when you didn't open up like you should have because you felt uncomfortable about certain things. I'll bet she'd understand!! Good luck. And don't think you're crazy 'cuz you aren't. And no one else should think you are!

Best of luck!

Guest,
Thank you so much for your reply. I have had appointments sense that post. I have managed to open up some what. I just can't help but think the more I open up the more judgement I will be subject to.
Take care and again, thanks for the reply

Sometimes you have to face your fears which means opening up a little, taking the risk of them laughing at you or knowing they could be thinking the worst of you, and guess what? The chance is very slim that they will do that unless you have something hanging from your nose or something and I highly doubt you will. Of course you won't be able to do this everytime but sometimes just a "hi" or throw a complimint at someone can get someone to notice you in a good way. There are a lot of good people in the work worth meeting, a lot of dickheads too but they aren't worth the time of day. You will meet some inspiring people who will like you as you. You deserve to be noticed.

Kathy,
Thank you for your reply. Your 100% right. However, some times taking that chance is hard.
I have gotten same great incouragement from this board. I appreciate each and every reply.
Thank you all.