by Lucitania » Wed May 04, 2005 11:02 pm
I don't want to scare you, but have to tell you the truth. I think what you experienced was the first side effects of paxil. I took paxil for 4 years and recently *finally* got myself off them.
The doctors put me on a very high dose (90miligrams) and I started to get very addicted. I started popping them in my mouth any time I felt nervous, and I went to the hospital one night from an accidental overdose.
It was alright at first..The pills did make me 'happier' in a sense..I was going out a lot, socializing, but I started to get manic. I don't remember somethings I did, the pills made me a completely different person. I would talk so fast and laugh loudly, always running around, I couldn't sit still. I would crave attention (which is nothing like the 'real' me) and I would embarrass myself infront of others then cry about it at night.
I started to get suicidal and nausiated everyday. I got fired from my job because I was too sick to make it on time. One night I just stopped taking them cold-turkey, and that is the worst possible way to stop them. I was thrashing about on my bed and hallucinating-my friends said it was like I was coming off herione or something.
It's taken months to recover, am I'm back to being the person that stays inside, doesn't talk to anyone, and is always depressed...I'm trying to get help now, but I would never take Paxil again.
You should really look into an alternative medicine-my mom took Zoloft and it really worked for her with no side-effects.
You never know though, Paxil might have been just bad for me...Just be careful.
Take care. *hugs*