does anyone else have this problem? it's at the top of my list. i'm constantly paranoid that people think i'm into them, especially if i am, and that they're disgusted by it. it shouldn't MATTER all that much, we're all human and whatev... but no matter how much i keep my distance and am respectful etc, i still get horribly anxious and embarrassed about it, worried that they know, especially if theyre obviously not interested. i don't care that they're not attracted to me, i care that they might know that i'm attracted to them and as a result think i'm pathetic. or even that other people might know and think i'm pathetic. it freaks me out and i try to build an image of being frigid, asexual, disinterested, so people will respect me.
i wish i could get past this...