Well I guess to start off, im basically in the same boat as a lot of the people here in a way. Except i noticed that a lot of people here pretty much grew up that way. I on the other hand never used to be like this! growing up, i was a shy and quiet kid BUT i always used to do stupid and silly things to make people laugh and always loved to entertain.
now, at almost 23, its a WHOLE different story! for the past few years, maybe 3-4 or so, i noticed that ive lost touch with my friends ive grown up with and i dont talk much even to my own family! I DIDNT EVEN DANCE AT MY OWN SISTERS WEDDING just because i didnt want anyone to say anything and i didnt want to 'look stupid'. and of course the girl that i only ever had emotions for was there too so that made me feel so much like an ass because i was the only one sitting there. another big problem i have is starting / holding convos. I can click well with very little people where i can sit there and talk all day long but for the majority of people, its mostly just "hey whats up?" "nothing much you?" and thats that..
im not sure what happened to me but i will say that i went through a pretty sever depression during the past 3-4 years that i started noticing this change. im kind of on an emotional roller coaster now and i wonder if i will ever change for the better even after i get through this depression that im going through (thnk GOD that its getting better though) i just want to know if anyones experienced this or is experiencing thisand how your handling it? is there anything i can do to help with what im going through? im kind of in a rush so im sure i left out a lot of things. thnx in advance for any help / advice!