Reading through the B.S.!

For years I thought that there was something wrong in the way I interacted with people and how I can't seem to keep or even make friends. I would get real red in the face and my hands would shake and I also get stomach pains. I have a hard time keeping in touch with my own family because I'm embarrassed to talk to them. I am going to a psychiatrist and a talk therapist. They insist that I am depressed but I disagree. I can function pretty much normally in the outside world I just can't maintain relationships. I was on Lexapro 10, then on Lexapro 20. Now he's got me on Effexor and it's only been a month. I think that my psychiatrist thinks that I'm making this up. I tried telling him that I don't think that this is something severe I just need a little help with the physical systems so that I can put myself out there. My boyfriend says that there is nothing wrong with me and that I should stop the medication. Now I don't trust anybody's opinion because it seems that they have internal reasons for me to be or not to be on freaking pills.

They say I have a chemical imbalance and medication should help. I thinks it's a bunch of crap because shouldn't there be real medical diagnostic tests for chemical imbalances in the brain? And whos to say that taking these medications aren't screwing up my brain right now.

Have you tried group therapy? I have social anxiety and I go to it. It is where you and some other people and a therapist go sit in a circle and talk about your feelings. It's for people with mental problems so if you are already diagnosed and on meds, I'm sure you can go. You should ask your psychiatrist if they know of any groups where you live. It's helpful in getting used to talking to people. It's helping me a little bit. ^^

Thanks! That's a really great idea. I hadn't thought of that. I was getting kinda frustrated going between these two doctors trying to pleading my case. I think that the Effexor is working a little bit, but......... we'll see.

Thanks again for your suggestion!