Hi there.

Hi there i am new here, I was not sure specifically where to post this as it is an amalgamation of lots of things so first let me describe myself before i describe the issue. I have (suspected) Asperger syndrome, i say suspected because the diagnosis was borderline since i also had a brain tumour at a very young age they were unsure of whether it was an aquired brain injury or high functioning autisic spectrum disorder (in this case aspergers) I struggle day to day with stress and generalized anxiety disorder. Along with needing to take several types of medication and have social problems (mainly that i can only really properly socialize with people like me who share the same interests) i don't really like large crowds However my mother did help me from a young age knowing the possibility i am autistic. Im currently struggling with a recurring problem. I Really struggle with my day to day stress and this leads me to be quite shut-in. I know my mother worries an awful lot and she has tried EVERYTHING to encourage me to be more social but i just find it SO akward and i feel physically incapable of it. I frequently end up in rows with my mother due to her not understanding that my main interest is gaming and solitary persuits and it creats more stress as i say things i don't mean.. which in turn leads to guilt... which leads to more stress.. which leads to being more shut-in. Are there any tips for breaking out of this spiral or helping with standing the evils of socialization?

I am currently 19 and unemployed but am studying to be an accountant.

You say you're into gaming. Have you ever thought about a local gaming group (mainly tabletop and card gaming granted, but they are out there.) You won't even need, or even practicing with a MMO online?