My workplace is full of CCTV and there are secret cameras too.
It frigging freaks me the hell out. There is nothing worse than having a couple of directors who leave their door while talking about what you`re doing in the office. For two sodding hours I got watched today. Two hours.
Comments like he looks nervous, he is struggling, he looks tired. Do these morons really not realise its because they are panicing and negging me out. How would they like it in my position where they can hear themselves being talked about in real-time? I can even hear bits when their door is shut but I could hear it all today for two sodding hours.
I cannot focus on my job like that, I dont know what the hell I`m doing, and I make a load of mistakes as a result.
How do I:
1. Feel more comfortable about being watched? Mindfulness isnt helping, this is too rooted in me for that to have an effect.
2. Get them to stop watching me or at least be quiet and shut their door when doing it?
Being watched I can cope with but being watched and commented on at the same time freaks me the hell out.