Hello,
This is quite an odd form of social phobia I know, but bear with me as I attempt to justify this as a worthy fear.
I have lived on my own since the age of 17 and am nearing 21 at the moment. The apartment I live at now is the 6th location that I have moved to within this time frame. throughout this experience of living alone, I have taught myself to be prepared as unexpected things happen on a daily bases. This belief has lead--me to not anticipate but--fear possibilities that I speculate.
What might these fears be? And why are they present while I'm asleep?
A basic form of social phobia includes anxiety. A panic in the mind that would be equivalent physically to an earthquake or an erupting volcano. A stream of 'what if's that if you had a choice you would rather be dead or not be able to think at all. This is my case but, with a slight twist. It happens at night. Before going to bed, in bed, and until I'm out of bed.
I cant say that I knew entirely that this was a case that I had, but I had an idea of it, I thought of it as just me being overly cautious. However, its slightly odd how I came to see this as a problem. Humour this for a moment, I only came to see this as a problem after I confronted my roommate for having the intention to or slightly thinking of watching me or doing something terrible to me in my sleep. How delusional must I have been, to think that there is sufficient logic for me to confront them about it.
Although I speak now as if its a thing of the past, I still feel this way at night. My concern is this, what the hell is going on?
Sincerely,
SomethingElse