Does anyone else have body language issues while being in social environments or wherever you think people can watch you?
Whenever I'm in social environments or wherever I think I can be seen, my body language changes. I become tense in the shoulders, my heart beats faster, my adrenal glands are constantly firing, I question whether I make the right gestures. I feel like I'm always giving a presentation or something. I question whether I'm blinking correctly, whether or not I should turn my head right or left first at a stop sign, whether or not I should walk at a fast or slow pace, whether or not I should make eye contact with people or not etc.
I'll get startled easily when people walk by me without any warning. For example: When I used to mow the lawn a few years back, If I was focused on looking down at the grass and all of a sudden of out nowhere some biker that I didn't see or hear coming passed by me on the sidewalk, my heart would punch and my body would jerk. Kind of like being scared on halloween when someone jumps out of nowhere at you without any expectation. I have this sort of feeling all the time. This is the biggest thing keeping me from doing anything.
Anybody else have it this severe?