Nothing good going on....just fear and heart pounding really

Nobody cares, all these are you alright questions are pointless and even if I SAY NO IT'S NOT, there's a fake caring, and who can blame them, everyone has their on stuff going in their smiling life....every job interview I take ends up horrible wrong, even an interview at my dream company went wrong due to my depression/social anxiety...lonely as hell, no one to go to or to just...you know be there, seems like I can't do it no more, hate myself for it, sorry for the rant