How to tell others?

Hi Everyone!,

This my first post in this forum. I'm pretty sure I suffer from social anxiety and/or low self esteem and just a lot of anxiety in general, which sucks!!
My family moves a lot so it's extra hard for me to make friends, but on top of that I also have to speak a different language here where I live right now, which makes me even more self-conscious.
I don't really have a lot of friends and everytime I meet old acquaintances/friends or new people, I am just not myself at all, it's as if I'm paralyzed or as if I'm a completely different person from one second to the other. I can't stop thinking about a million things that could happen/go wrong in those situations, and because I think so much (live in my head) I kinda don't say very much or appear shy/uninterested in others.
I moved back to where I used to live a couple of years ago, and I had a few friends here back then. The thing is a few years ago I wasn't such an anxious person. So when we met a couple of months ago, I was sooo nervous to see them again. So what happened is what always happens... I was super awkward, shy, paralyzed etc. That sucks because with REALLy close friends and family I'm not shy at all. Basically, then we stopped talking, because I was embarrassed and scared to see them again. I'm pretty sure they either think I've changed, I don't like them or that I'm super arrogant or not interested in talking to them. In reality, that's all I wish for; to be friends with them again.
Now, a couple of weeks ago we started talking online again. But basically why I'm here today is because sometimes I wish I could just tell them and everyone else all about my problems, because I'm 100% sure they have no clue. It would clear so many misconceptions. But I can't just tell them all about my problems, just like that. They're gonna think I'm a weirdo xD. I've never told anyone about it. So I was wondering if you have any advice what I should do. Should I maybe give them a hint (but how?) or should I maybe post something indirect somewhere/ change my whatsapp status to something maybe a quote or song lyrics? or just something that gives them a hint that I don't hate them or should I not say anything at all?? HELP Thanks if you're still reading haha xD

Dear Blueberry1102:

If I was you, I would tell them just a little. "I suffer from social anxiety, I worry too much when in company of others. But I really want to be friends with you, from the moment I returned to this area."- something like that.

If you went on and on about all your problems through the years, that would be too much. But just a little, so to clear misconceptions, that is a good idea and not at all weird, as far as I am concerned.

atina