For a few months I've been dealing with bad bouts of feeling antisocial and not really wanting to immerse myself in large social scenes. This is a little weird for me considering how social I was in high school and my freshman year of college. In high school I had tons of friends, was always up to meeting new people and seeing new things, had a wonderful gift of gab, teemed with confidence, and dated some of the coolest and prettiest girls at my school. During my freshman year of college, I was able to assimilate myself pretty well. I only knew a few people from my high school that were attending the same college, but I made new friends pretty easily and got into the party scenes and the big social gatherings that were popular around campus. Fast forward to the present day and everything has pretty much been flipped. Most days I just want to hang out in my apartment and just dork around on my computer or play video games. I've kinda narrowed down my circle of friends and consistently hang out with only a few of the same friends I had from last year. Sometimes, I try to avoid social settings in fear that I'll be really awkward and just come off as weird. Earlier I mentioned I had a gift of gab - that gift is long gone. I absolutely suck at small talk now. I just got a new job, and I'm getting to know some of my co-workers better, who I think are really nice and pretty funny, but I feel as if I don't contribute anything to the environment. When I talk to people my side of the conversation is filled with one word responses and stereotypical small talk. And don't even ask about girls right now
