i'm a mess

hi guys well i have a big social anxiety i don't really have no friends i have two that i like to hang on with but i always prefer to stay alone my biggest problem is that i get very stressed and hates alot the society we live in i can't tolerate it i hate out values the way we live we lie we believe in the media con control the stupidity and rage of people and i overthink that alot and it makes me nervesse very nerveless i'm trying to read a book i can't even read the first page i get lost become angry nerves can't concentration i really don't know i'm calm don't get into conflicts ever and it's the fact that i keep all this inside that kills me i really hate it i'm always nervesse i walk alot but when i'm alone i start thinking and overthinking and it makes me again more nervesse sometimes i can't sleep if i don't make some push ups before going to sleep plus the fact that i live some like a stressful life sometimes i just with to die and finish with it but not suicide i mean natural but every time i start calming down something new start stressing me the hell out principally this day at home with my parents and even the news if you watch there are so much terrorist attacks in the world thanks

no answers ?

With respect, you did not ask any questions in your first post on top.

I can relate to what you say about getting nervous and not being able to concentrate and reading a book. On a subconscious level, the mind is working on solving problems. Social anxiety is a problem that my mind tries to solve. So even when I am away from the world and quietly reading, a certain amount of brain power is being used on my anxiety and therefore it is harder to concentrate on reading a book.

Before I ask a question or talk to somebody, I often practice it several times in my head before saying it. This makes socializing take a lot of energy. This is where I can relate to how you say you overthink a lot because I do the same.

well i din't ask any question because i thought it's like with a psychologue you tel him your story and he understand what's the problem well thanks for your answers my friend still i don't help us we need solutions to get ride of this

You sound like you are very stressed out. I know that place.

Try writing down the core things that give you the most stress. This might be painful or difficult but try.

I don't have much advice. As you get older, it become somwhat easier to cope but still very difficult. Altough the feeling of wanting to die (not suicide, I understand) seems to be a bit less when you get older because you gain a little more perspective.