Its not social anxiety when everyone really does turn on you

I recently overheard my mother mentioning the time when I use to be on Ritalin. It set me off and I haven't been able get it out of my mind. All I know is that $#%^ literally almost killed me and I had to be hospitalized.

Ritalin causes growth problems which explains why I had a shrunken testicle, and I remember a tube being shoved inside my di*k. God that hurt like hell. I had to be held down by a group of nurses..... Why wasn't I put to sleep for this horrible process? I remember it happening at least twice. Back in the days when I was in and out of the hospital constantly.

Ritalin also causes sexual dysfunction which is half the reason why I'm even here on this forum. I never knew that until yesterday when I researched it. That explains why I'm so messed up in the head. A lot of you think you got issues but your not attracted to kids. I'm uniquely messed up sexually, and still a virgin at the age of 28.

She also said that my medical records prove I was misdiagnosed when I had hydrocephalus. This misdiagnoses was something that went overlooked for a couple of years at least. My records basically prove medical neglect. It's not that they couldn't do anything because I was too young and small. They didn't even know and my mother complained enough times that something was wrong with me. They were paid to do nothing while I went on living with a neurological condition.

I wish I just died back then. I hate the person that I've become. Everyone does. That's why I was picked on in school. No one liked me because I was the socially challenged weird kid.

I'm not sure what to do or where to turn for help. I want answers. I need to know more about my past but as it is I already know enough to want to contact a lawyer, but no one listens to me when I ask them if I could possibly have a medical neglect case. Isn't there a way to get a free consultation?

and I was thrown by a teacher once. my IEP wasn't followed the way it should have been. Our house was stolen from us by the bank and it's illegal loan that my mother couldn't afford the payments on. I couldn't keep a job to help her pay the bills at all because no one wanted to train a disabled kid but they will hire thieves and drug addicts! A car company wants my parents to pay the difference on a car they had repossessed on them like 7 or 8 years ago. Our ex landlord successfully sued my mom for damages to his house that were from lack of upkeep...... It's not social anxiety when the world really is trying to F*** with me!!!!!

GGGGRRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

When other people get hurt, injured or discriminated against lawyers come out of no where and work for free until the case is settled...... What about my family??? I've watched for years as my families whole life slowly became a train wreck and there isn't a soul out there who cares enough to help us.

Please someone answer me. :please: So much damage has been done to my life and health and no one has been held responsible for it. I'm sick of this life. I can't get ahead in a world that only wants to steal from my family and use children as drug monkeys!!!!!!

And I don't give one F*** about the statue of limitations. I'm still dealing with the after affects of improper medical treatment!!!! There is no limitation on my brain injury! It's PERMANENT!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear sociallyawkward:

I hear your intense anger and frustration loud and clear. Misdiagnoses are common. And negative affects of psychiatric drugs are also common. Malpractice is also very common.

As far as medical malpractice lawyers or any injury lawyers, they take cases, as I understand it, only if they can put a $ value on damages. If the person died clearly as a result of malpractice - then there is a high $ value. On the other hand, your sexual dysfunction may not be a clear result of malpractice, hard to prove, that is. Lawyers go for $ and what is EASY to prove.

Your parents carry a good share of the responsibility for the misfortune you experienced as a child and still suffering from.

You can have free consultations with malpractice lawyers. Probably on the phone.

If I was you, I'd make plans to move away from your family and live independently, seeking psychotherapy with a competent therapist.

atina